Blissful Sleep & What We Have

When you can’t sleep, the world begins to tilt. You can’t concentrate. Or trust your own judgment. What you would give for a night of blissful sleep.

Finally I slept. I have decided I just cannot take the Hydrocodone. Makes me crazier than a junkyard dog. And sleep is elusive.

Last night I took a muscle relaxer and slept. Oh, heavenly sleep.

Sleep. Such a simple thing to ask for. But sometimes we reach out for it and it just isn’t there.

We are promised nothing in this world. We are here right now, but in a flash it can all be gone. No matter how strong your moorings, the concrete of your foundation can shift and crack at any time. 

Which is why all the little moments in life are so important to enjoy. That first sip of coffee in the morning. The spring bulbs pushing up through the dirt at winter’s end. 

From trees budding, to the changing of seasons.

Ebb and flow.  
Time and tide waits for no man.

Enjoy them all. Those simple moments.

Sit and stare out your window. Take time to reflect on what you have this very minute. What you cherish and hold dearest. 

Nothing is permanent. But everything in between is precious.


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  1. Oh sleep can be so wonderful. I do thoses silly quizzes on facebook. When they list several things that you wish for and sleep is mentioned, that's the one I check. I am doing better in that department.
    So glad you spoke to Judy. Praying for her.
    Hugs for you.

  2. Thank you for a beautiful post. I am glad you are on the way to recovery. Judy is in my thoughts, I am touched by the depth of feeling she and John shared and his statement to her about loving her in spite of not knowing who she is. That makes me wonder about the where and how our feelings come from. Are our feelings separate from our ability to express such feelings? Thank you for sharing your story, I am touched by the depth of feeling in your posts.

  3. I really love your last line. It can be so hard to live in the moment…there are so many distractions. Sometimes I feel like I'm a hamster on a wheel. I have plenty of down time, that's a sure thing, but I always have plans and ideas and "To Do's" going through my head. That's why I can't sleep.

    This was such a nice post, I am glad knowing that Judy has a large family. With her happy personality, she probably has a lot of friends. She will need a lot of time to grieve alone but I think…and I only say this as I imagine it to be true, that when you lose a spouse, you suddenly have to learn navigate alone, and that's important. But that loneliness can lead to relentless grief instead of moving on. Just my thoughts. Thanks for keeping us posted.

    And good for you for getting some sleep. I have Naproxen for my back and sometimes when I am tense and can't sleep, I ache all over. The relaxation I get from this helps me a lot. If you are still in a lot of pain, there are alternatives to Hydrocodone.

    Sending a hug, I hope you get that shut eye again tonight. And hey, I'm home! Milo and Layla have not left my side…I think they are worried I'm going to disappear again! 🙂

    Jane x

    Jane xx

  4. I'm so glad you got some good sleep Brenda. Sleep is healing.

    My heart goes out to Judy for her loss. I lost my dear husband 23 months ago tomorrow. We were married 43 years. My life changed drastically from what it was, the grief is not as raw as in the beginning, but I miss my love every single day and tears can happen at the drop of a hat. We will be reunited one day, until then, I trust in God to be my strength with each day that I am blessed with. I am thankful for my many blessings big and small, and for the love we had. My love for him continues to grow with each new day, even though he is no longer here.

    Judy is in my prayers as she starts on this journey of widowhood.

    Love and hugs to you and a speedy recovery too ~ FlowerLady

  5. You are so right about things changing in a flash, and appreciating what you do have. We certainly have experienced that following my husband's job layoff. After two years of challenges, we have been set back financially, but we have received other blessings along the way. My biggest gains are that I no longer fret as much about mistakes in the past, or worry as much about the future. I have really have had to focus on getting by in the present. It has been a great lesson. I think reading this blog and hearing about your challenges and Judy's has been a big help in terms of learning about dealing with adversity. Thanks!

  6. My heart skipped a beat when I read about John and Judy. The link between two souls is priceless…..
    There is an absolute stillness when the soul leaves the body as it passes between this world and the next. If you happen to be with the person when it happens, you feel it too…….total stillness…… silence………..
    I hold Judy in my prayers and in my heart. Blessings…… Nanny

  7. What wonderfully wise words. We should be grateful for every day we're given, even if things don't always go the way we want. Thank you for Judy's address. I sent a card yesterday morning. Blessings

  8. I hope you're healing well, Brenda, and glad you were able to sleep. There are some pain meds I can't take either; they make me jittery.

    Thanks for the news about Judy. I'm keeping her in my prayers.

  9. I'm glad you've been able to get some sleep, Brenda…it makes a world of difference. My thoughts have been with Judy, too. When my father passed away 6 months ago, my parents had been married 60 years. It is such a change to suddenly be on your own and to miss your other half so terribly…

  10. You are so right…I just went to a class, where everyone had to go around the room and say something they were grateful for, that may, at first glance, seem insignificant. The lesson was, that no matter how small, if you're grateful for it, it's not insignificant.

  11. The older I get, the more I realize how fleeting time is. Somehow, I think no matter how old we live, it's never long enough. I look at all of nature's gifts, especially this time of year, and I think 'how can anything be more beautiful than this'. Nope, if heaven doesn't have these things, I'm staying put.

  12. I'm glad you got some rest. It's good to hear that Judy is hanging in there. I know it will hit her later. John sounds like such a special man, I am glad we got to know him even a little through her blog and yours.

  13. Brenda, I am glad you got some rest…you need it to heal. You know Brenda, I have been thinking of Judy and John all week…. when you wrote what he said to her about not knowing her but knowing he loved her. … that just touched my heart so much. God will have a special place for John. Live can be so short, we are not promised all the days we want….so we better make them all count. Find , like you said,. A simple joy in each day. Bless you , xoxo,Susie

  14. I am just catching up here….so sad to hear about John, and am thinking of Judy. I am glad your surgery went well, and that you finally had a nice sleep. I hope you keep on getting better, take care Brenda. Sending love.
    Helen xox

  15. I admire a long marriage. A devoted marriage. An admired marriage. My folks' marriage….(53 years).
    SO glad you got some sleep! Bulb planting this weekend and it will be nearly 80 degrees. My thoughts on 80 degrees: I hate it. I want rain so bad. Have a wonderful weekend. Hugs.

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