Yesterday it was 105 degrees by noon. Which means more watering of the patio plants.
And that also means I have to keep all the blinds drawn or this place heats up inside pretty fast. So Charlie is a little bored not having a window to the squirrels.
But that’s temporary.
I bet the squirrels are somewhere in the shade trying to stay cool as well.
I do need to go out and get chicken wire by the end of the week because my son-in-law will probably come over this weekend to help me with the fence problem. He has one of those staple guns.
I do have things piled in front of the fence openings. Still, it weighs on me that something might happen and they could somehow come tumbling down.
As a tenant who always pays my rent, etc., on time, I do resent that it falls to me to take care of problems when it is clearly their responsibility. But I realize that that resentment just makes me feel tense and just harms me and not them.
I have to figure out ways to keep myself from getting too upset about this and do what I can control myself.
Because when you’re sitting here worrying about it and hitting a brick wall, you have to put it all in perspective and move on as best you can. For your own sake.
I’ve been, off and on, searching potential places to move for a month or so now, and the results are quite depressing. I feel like I’ve been half sitting on one side of the fence, while at the same time sitting on the other side.
I’ve warred with it inwardly. That has only served to distract me from the beauty of life. Feeling like my footing is uncertain.
I’m not going to let them take that for me. I’m going to settle down about it and let what happens happen. For I really have no other choice in the matter.
And to accept that gives me a measure of peace.
I’ve felt like I shouldn’t bother decorating or dreaming about decorating, for I felt on shaky ground. Fixing the fence so that the dogs at least can’t get out will help me with that.
Yesterday, after weeks of scouring online for a canvas painting I truly loved and that was within budget, I finally ordered a more “cottage-style” painting of yellow roses (which you know are my favorite color of roses), from Wayfair to go over my couch.
I will put the cow canvas that is there now in another room. I just needed more color in here and I think the yellow roses will suffice.
The best news is that I got it at a very good price. I will be showing it to you when it arrives next week.
So don’t let things you can’t control immobilize you. Find a way to put things to rest as best you can, and then go out and smell the roses.