The patio looks sad. The zinnias are dead, as are many other plants. Still showing a bit of life are the petunias and eucalyptus. And of course the herbs. Herbs are pretty hardy.
The hyacinth bean vine seeds I planted didn’t even make it to the point of forming bean pods. I was hoping I’d get some beans so I’d have them to plant next spring. But an early winter surprised us all.
I guess I need to go out and do a bit of maintenance, cut off the dead parts of the withering plants. But I just don’t have it in me right now.
I’m doing a load of laundry. Listening to the machine go through its cycles.
The sunshine coming in is bright but it’s cold outside.
Ivy has been on her best behavior this weekend. She quietly plays with her toys and occasionally comes to lay on the table next to my chair so I will pet her.
Friday Charlie wasn’t supposed to go to an acupuncture appointment, but I called and talked to the vet and she said to bring him in and leave him for a bit. That they’d call me when they had him feeling better.
I took that opportunity to run some errands, as I don’t like to leave him much.
When I went back to pick him up, I told her that I was having a hard time doing his land therapy at home because my back was giving me problems and it was hard to get up once I got down on the floor.
She told me that the team had gotten together for a meeting and decided that I should just enjoy Charlie now and not worry too much about all the other stuff at home.
She said: “This is bonus time.”
I asked her what that meant.
She said she never thought Charlie would make it this long and that he had been doing well with the acupuncture. And that I should spend this time just loving and enjoy being with him.
Of course those words pierced my heart. I try not to get upset in front of Charlie, so I put on a brave face.
It is inevitable I know.
I hear him cough and choke and there’s not much I can do beyond give him the hydrocodone syrup. Be there with him. Give him his meds and feed him and tend to him.
And savor the time we have left. Whatever that may be.